Monday, April 09, 2007

Me, myself and this gal !!!

Well, this blog entry is a bit personal... But then, just wanted to tell abt someone..

It was the year 2000. I just had finished my UG. Was wandering in da streets of RS Puram and njoying life. Those were da times when there is nothing serious inside da mind and everywhere it appears sunshine and rainbows , and life was simply bindaas !!

One night , was just sitting in a friend’s Internet café and was mindlessly chatting in da Coimbatore chat room of yahoo… There , got hold of a gal.. (For that matter, I don’t even know it was a girl… da id was a bit peculiar).. It was a very casual kinda chat.. lasted for some 15-20 mts.. da time was already 10:00 PM.. closing time for da café and so, finished up da chat.. The girl gave her home no and asked me to call.. Initially, I thgt it’s some kinda bakra thing… But then, went out and gave a call to that no...To my real surprise, that gal herself answered da fone.. It was very casual.. Da chat lasted for some time.. Learnt that she lives in colony and that she’d just finished her UG also... Then, da talk ended and I went to home..

From then on, whenever I go, I ‘l check she’s there or not... Sometime, she’ll b and sometimes, she won’t.. This went on for another 2-3 yrs.. In all these yrs, I’d’ve chatted only for a less no of times with her.. Then came da next level..

I wz doing my PG by this time.. After I finished, was again meandering and da same story continued.. After some months, decided to move to B’lore to take up a course in N/W and went there and joined a center... It was at this time that I got a mail from this friend of mine that she’s also moved to B’lore.. She joined a S/W company there and was incidentally in a particular field of joining which I wz also giving a thought.. Then, I called her up, she answered and advised me to join that field, as it was a bit popular at t hat time.. So, immediately I came out of t his N/W course, and joined this new course.. It ended in 2 months and then I came to cbe again , to look for jobs.. Even at this time , I was not that keen in getting a job.. So, was meandering again.. She used to advice me up in chats to get a job soon…

I used to call her up every time I went for an interview and she’d help me up with some important gyaan...She used to pacify me abt da flopped interviews.. This went on for some time.. And, then, the next level..

By this time, I landed on a job.. She was really happy on hearing that, and I went to her city after tht.. I met this girl for da first time !! That meeting was great … She was very very casual, jovial, freaking out and was a great companion.. That nite, I had a stroll with her in the quite roads near her home.. It was fantastic, to say da least.. I thoroughly njoyed every second of it, and was not at all willing to go back.. But then , gotta go..

Immediately after a couple of days, I again met her.. This time, she was more casual, more freaking out and more jovial.. J .. I spent a whole afternoon and da evening with her.. We both njoyed it a lot... When I left her, it was around late in da nite..

That nite, I was supposed to travel back to my city.. Through out da nite, frankly I was thinking abt this gal.. Somehow, I dunno what mede to think abt her.. Anyhow, whatever I thought, ended in this gal ultimately…

Da next morning, I decided to type a mail to this gal abt this.. I was thinking abt this and suddenly got a cal from her !! She too was telling da same thing … and then.. Some more calls.. From that day onwards, everyday I’m chatting with this gal almost for da entire day.. We met twice after that, once in my town and the next time in her town.. Both meetings were fantastic…

Now, presently, If u ask me what do I think abt this gal, well…. I know I’m loving this gal.. I know it very well.. She’s like a princess to me...I know very well, If I hv this gal with me, I can b rest assured that , both our lives ‘ll b superb !! This gal also loves me, I know.. Also, seeing this fl is like seeing myself in a mirror.. She exactly is like me... in all aspects.. more or less, we both hv da same taste in almost anything.. It’s good to hv someone like this thru out da life…

She’s like da Scarlett O Hara of Gone with da wind, having a few traces of da lovely Francesca from Bridges of Madison county…. Having this gal with me is like, wonderful… There is one famous song by Ronan Keating.. It’s my most favorite and it goes like this...

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they can never define
What's being said between your heart and mine….

Every line is true when this gal is around.. She somehow makes da environment electrifying, and every second I ‘m with her, I’m njoying!!

When I think abt this girl, certain lines from Bridges of Madison County come to my memory…

Da hero , Robert Kincaid, a middle aged photographer, meets a lady on his way to film an old bridge for National geographic.. They both fall in love da first time they meet.. and, when he leaves, he asks :

               Francesca, listen to me. You think 
               What’s happened to us happens to just 
               anybody? What we feel for each other? 
               How much we feel? We're not even two 
               separate people anymore. Some people 
               search their whole lives for it and 
               wind up alone -- most people don't 
               even think it exists and you're going 
               to tell me that giving it up is the 
               right thing to do? That staying here 
               alone in a marriage, alone in a town 
               you hate, in a house you don't feel 
               apart of anymore -- you're telling me 
               that's the right thing to do!?
They both stay for just 4 days .. After that, he gotta leave for his hometown.. He’l never return back.. On that day, Francesca ‘s husband returns, and they both go for shopping. 
        Francesca places a bag of groceries on the front seat of the 
         truck, then gets in herself to wait for Richard (Her husband).
         Through the windshield, she sees ROBERT standing beside his 
         truck across the street, staring at her. Her heart stops. 
         For a moment, she isn't even sure he's real.
         The town moves about its business around them. But neither 
         notice or care. Whatever safety or forgetfulness she felt is 
         gone. Her feelings burst through. She sits there helpless 
         before him -- willing to go or stay depending on what he did.
         He begins walking towards her. She prepares herself. Her life 
         will change -- it has to. There's not turning back.
         But the closer Robert gets, the clearer he can see that she 
         is crying. And he stops.
         Without any words, he realizes what taking her with him would 
         mean. With just a glance, he sacrifices her. With their eyes 
         locked in the middle of Main Street -- in front of the whole 
         town -- they smile and say goodbye.
         Robert returns to his truck. He drives off down Main Street, 
         taking the first left.
         Moments later, Richard throws the feed bag into the back of 
         his truck and gets in. Francesca is wiping her eyes.
         He doesn't notice. He drives off in the same direction as 
                              FRANCESCA thinks:- 
                 For a moment, I didn't know where I 
                 was. And for a split second, the 
                 thought crossed my mind that he 
                 really didn't want me -- that it was 
                 easy to walk away.
         As they pass the corner where Robert made his left turn, 
         Francesca turns to look and sees:
         ROBERT'S TRUCK IS PARKED just off the corner. As if he had to 
         drive away to get out of sight, but couldn't bring himself to 
         drive any further.
         The sight of him hiding there breaks Francesca's heart, she 
         turns away from her husband to hide the tears.
That’s it !! That’s da last time she sees him.. After 15 years, she gets a letter that Robert has died.. 

I just can’t help thinking that , may b, after some time, this mite happen to us also.. Well, I’m not sure.. Anything mite happen.. But , if this gal agrees, I’m determined that I ‘l hv this gal throughout my life with me !!

jeevan dagar mein prem nagar mein
aaya nazar mein jab se koi hain
tu sochta hain tu puchata hain
jiski kami thi kya yeh wohi hain
haa yeh wohi hain - 2
tu ek pyasa aur yeh nadi hain
kaahe nahi isko tu khulke bataye
jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni
woh baat kya hai bata

It all depends on what the gal thinks..My piece of advice(she's been getting a lot these days ...)

teri nigaahen, paa gayi rahein
par tu yeh soche jaaun na jaaun
yeh zindagi jo hai naachti toh
kyon bediyon mein hai tere paanv
preet ki dhun par naach le paagal
udta agar hai udne de aanchal
kaahe koi apne ko aaise tarsaaye
jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni
woh baat kya hai bata
Mitwa kahein dharkanein tujhse kya
mitwa yeh khudse toh na tu chhupa ! !

Anyway, let’s c……. After all, Fear can hold you prisoner. Hope can set you free” . . . . .


பின்னோக்கி said...

Interesting. Wish you all the very Best. Do update in this website when you are marrying that girl.

The S c o r p said...

Thanx a lot Pinnookki . . . I'll update it for sure :)

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